Why do I into peer pressure so much?
Ive seen some mobile contacts showing their offers, yeah, similar to these saying that some friends are so competitive or compatible in so many things and which made me suddenly feel uneasy.
Today I was talking to my best friend about my ironic moment: I scoffed the intern of big 4 last year, and this year I couldn’t even find a single internship of them, what a heck.
Anyway, now I’m a little bit grown up because I didn’t feel pressure looking contacts showing off their competitive friends, it’s not them, right? And I will eventually get what I deserve, starting from solving my punctuality.
Instead of ending my thoughts by giving some “positive” promises, I would like to discuss more about peer pressure, especially that on the colleges students.
I found all kinds of the college peer pressure as a result-declaring date for the exams, after a period of hard studying and non sleepers, people exhaust and excite themselves by everything, betting a lot of emotion and a lot of thing just for the final result, the scores or the final grade of the courses, or in the internship cases or a lot more, a yes from the superiorities.
And then people with satisfied results would express their delights on some of the social platform, I did and I do usually, to share some happiness and self-accomplishments, though I knew it will not deliver positivity in most ways. I am recently asking myself whether it’s healthy or not, and I think that depends on the person. For me, it would be healthy if all of these occasions happen in a certain frequency, like it would happen in a regular time that push me further more that I will get used to it, but most of my previous experience fail to make me feel so healthy, I always felt voided after the short run assessment and competition. All of my mentalities were telling me to do nothing afterwards and have a big night or a big rest anyways just in order to forget everything and turn into who I was and change nothing, otherwise I can feel no relief. At least, it’s my symptom.
Thinking on another aspect, I am always studying my interests in languages, even though undoubtedly they sometimes made me feel uneasy and awkward as well, but I’m still into them and want to make some further step, more importantly, I couldn’t stop loving them. When I was taking an English exam, I feel no much fear as the other subjects, and when I failed sometimes I would find passion to redo it someday in the future, that’s not unhealthy, as I think, and though now I could remember a lot of my language stuff because I’ve been practicing a lot.
I’m fully awared that it’s not realistic to make myself loving every subject, I’m not such a generous person that can give off infinite love or care, but at least, perhaps there’s a way that I could make more things sustainably healthy, and exploiting my short term memories just for the final result of the exam and then enjoying the self-accomplishments being immersed into the jealousy and the compliments, are not healthy, as I could tell.